It’s a war out there

Sitting here this morning, I must admit that I feel a bit numb. It’s that feeling when you know in this physical world, you ought to be freaking out, but you’re not.

I’m completely aware of my surroundings. I understand that this could last for months before we ever gain some sense of normalcy again. I’ve had dreams of sewing masks and preparing for what I would be faced with when stepping outside my home.

I am faced with endless prayer requests on social media, and I do my best to provide for every need that crosses my path.

I seek to find something to busy myself by making masks, but many argue that my making masks would harm others. When wearing my own mask, people give me looks and presume that I am sick as if I were a leper. None of them showed any sort of compassion as to why I might be wearing that mask. Could it be that I have children who have had health problems, and I want to protect them? Could it be that I am concerned about my own health and the exposure to this thing we are warring against? Could it be that I should make my own choices as to how protected I want to be?

It’s a war out there. A war is being waged against our peace and against our joy. What ever happened to common sense? When did people ever believe that starting a fight would help them achieve the result they were looking for? When did rebellion ever get someone a good result?

People say that the battle belongs to the Lord. If this is so, then why do people keeps taking matters into their own hands? I saw deception over the land way before this war began. People have lost their common sense; it’s becoming a rarity. Good has become evil, and evil has become good.

People, go back to the place where you found your first love. Ask God where the right path is and get on it. Consider any mistakes and make it right with God. Ask for wisdom. Examine all things, even your heart. Make it all right with God; repent. Consider the life of Jesus and the apostles. Who ever stood against evil for their rights? Get back to God through prayer, through fasting, and being on your knees. Be desperate for the presence of the Lord. You may not find Him in that Sunday morning building, but you will find Him in your prayer closet. God will be there when you call for him. Seek the Lord surrendering everything you have and all that you are. Yield to his direction, and you will find peace and direction. You will experience love, if your heart is ready to receive it.

Go forth and be blessed my friend.

I lost my will to live

Have you ever came into contact with something or someone that made you feel uncomfortable?

Before I entered into a relationship with Jesus, my life was full of a lot of things like drinking, smoking cigarettes, and, well, I had a real mouth on me. It was an exterior that was evidence of a lifetime full of abuse and neglect. This exterior was an automatic response to protect myself and, then, dull the pain.

In those moments, if someone would have told me that I should stop, I don’t know that I would have, because I did not feel like I had the reason to stop. I didnt have the will power to do such a thing.

When God came into my life, what was once a loss of the will to live became a powerful passion to do right for myself. To put into video game terms, I went from a minus 100 will-power to a plus 100 will-power. Everything was changing in such a great in awesome way. It was what I needed. I needed that time of mercy. But as God demonstrated his love for me, he also began to reveal the sources of my pain, the sources I could change. This was not easy but needed to be addressed.

It was a difficult task to stop smoking cigarettes. I had been smoking for 15 years, and it took 2 years to quite. I have been in those moments when I would be walking and begin to smell cigarette smoke. In the earlier days of my recovery, it smelled so good. But then something deep inside caused me to feel uncomfortable.

It would have been so easy to drive two blocks down the road and buy a pack of cigarettes. Would I heed the warning, or would I feel offended that someone was telling me that I shouldn’t do it?

If someone came to my house and set a pack of cigarettes in front of me, would I be offended? I may feel offended, but should I blame my conviction on the person who placed those cigarettes in front of me? Or should I take the matter to the Lord ready to learn what was being presented, something that was for my own good?

As children of God, we must learn to hear the conviction of God over the offense of another, or even the guilt of the devil. If we don’t know the difference, we are likely to blame people as we can be easily caught up in our flesh if we don’t attend to our spiritual well-being.

Today, if someone brought cigarettes into my home, I would ask them to put them in their pocket or in their purse, for the sake of the children. Although though those things make me feel uncomfortable, it is not the fault of our guest that I recieved that feeling. That feeling is a reminder from God of what those cigarettes represented – a lifetime of abuse and neglect covered up by substances to help dull the pain.

I don’t need those substances, because God is my substance. He is my everything. When I listen to those uncomfortable feelings and acknowledge them before God, I am more able to avoid the dangers of this life and live in prosperity.

This is what God wants for us: peace and prosperity. Ask God today what that looks like for you. Ask it with a sincere heart and respond accordingly, and you will never regret the outcome.

Go forth and be blessed my friend.